Yeah, ok.  So, one of the first things you may notice is that there are no (count them, no) trivial links, bits of text, and what nots in this journal post.  That's because I'm suddenly having an existential crisis.  Namely about my online life.

I've been "Dusk Wolf" for, what 6, maybe 7+ years now, and I'm fairly comfortable in being so.  Or, at least I was until just recently.  Now I feel split; like I've suddenly physically divided myself into two different people.  One me wants to stay "Dusk Wolf", but the other wants to change to something new, different; something that (I shiver to admit it) is starting to feel a bit more fitting to Me as a person.  Therein lies the biggest issue of all.  And it all sprouts from my artwork.

Improvement is usually a good thing, and I have seen some improvement in my art, but I've reached a difficult time in doing so.  It's looking like, if I wish to continue to improve upon my artstyle, I need to put my past artstyle behind me.  But if I do that, it won't look like "Dusk Wolf's" artstyle.  I know that I could go through and move all my old stuff to scraps, or I could just delete it.  But that would be an insult to who I was as an artist at that time.

I've recently been trying to work and all I've accomplished so far is to fight myself over my drawings.  The end result looks horrible, and makes me feel like giving up art all together.  That feeling in itself makes me depressed and confused.



Now, I don't know who I want to be.



I guess I'll be on hiatus until I've worked my way through this.....


Until next time,
~Dusk, or whoever I'm going to be.....